I’ve always thought of myself as a person who doesn’t really care about what people’s opinions of me are. It’s come to my attention in the last few months that I do care and it’s been a big part of my lack of progression. Over the last 5 years, my opinions and beliefs about how the world works have changed a great deal, and even though my new beliefs serve me far better than my old ones did, I’m keeping them at arms length when it comes to dealing with my friends and family. So I need to ask my self a big question: am I ashamed of my new beliefs?
Ashamed may be the wrong word, but I am holding back how I feel and what it is that I hope to achieve in the future. I am a different person to who I was 5 years ago and I believe I have grown in so many ways, but I am still holding back from embracing my new life in fear of being misunderstood. I know that my friends and family think I’m a little off the wall anyway, so adding to my strangeness shouldn’t really make a difference – after all, they have all stuck by me this far. I don’t believe my new beliefs are strange or off the wall, I think they make more sense than my old ones did and they give me more inner peace, so I need to toughen up a bit and wear them with pride. They belong to me and I believe in them with every inch of my being. No more keeping quiet, no more making excuses or holding back. I have to stand tall and live with no fear of misunderstandings or mockery; if people don’t understand then I’ll explain, and if they still don’t understand then that’s their problem, not mine.